I moved in with Neil on June 14th and we have really gone for it transforming his home into our home. This weekend was the first one in 2 months that wasn’t all about working on the pre-move, the move or the post-move. There have been so many lists, so many trips to Homebase, so many deliveries of furniture, so much taken to the recyling centre, charity shops and left on the front steps. Between us we’ve given/thrown away 70% of our old stuff. It has been such an amazing intense period and we are so glad the work is done and we now have a new home.

We decided to make this Sunday gone a ‘holiday in London day’ and that anything practical was banned. We both have unlimited Cineworld cards now and so ended up going to see 2 films: The Visitor and The Mist.

Here’s a little review/critique of them to get me back in my blogging boots.

The Visitor:

I loved it! A beautiful story of one man’s closed heart opening when he helps another. The film artfully walked a balance between examining the political dimensions of immigration, a love story and a story of awakening. Whilst watching it I started to reflect on how a love story will touch people differently depending on their degrees of heart openness without it having to be directly “about them”. I felt as strongly resonant about the love between the white American male lead character and the Syrian/Palestinian Muslim mother of the man in detention as I would have a gay couple or any other. I wondered whether that would be the case with other people: whether the racial, age, gender, nationality or religious dimensions sometimes prevented people from seeing love as love. It occurred to me the more open one’s heart is the more love that ‘looks different’ to yours resonates deeply with you.

This realization makes me feel more understanding for those who can’t relate to different looking love and rather than seeing it as prejudice on their part, instead I can see it as a case of hearts that are still waiting to blossom.

The Mist:

In the words of Bruno this was a big ‘Nicht Nicht’. The trailer looked promising and it was written/adapted and directed by the man who brought us The Shawshank Redemption. It was so heavy handed with it’s politics and is the perfect representation of a ‘Mean-Green’ film.

Ken Wilber in his integral vision writes about  stages of development and the green one is level 6. Green represents liberal thinking, a respect for multiple truths and paths, pluralism, multi-culturalism, universal human rights. Aurobindo called it the ‘planetary mind’. The film presented itelf as a green centred film directly attacking religious fundamentalism (Ken Wilber’s Level  4 - Amber - Conformist, Absolutist, Ethnocentric).

A hysterical Christian character sees The Mist as the coming Armageddon and the monsters coming out of it - grabbing the townsfolk from the safety of the supermarket they’re all trapped in - as delivering God’s vengeance. As more people die and those remaining get more and more scared, more people get whipped up by her preaching into joining her. Her mob then start to call for sacrifices to appease the demon beasts and in a frenzied scene she calls for the sacrifice of the main hero’s young son and ‘the whore’ holding him (the nice special-ed teacher). At this point one of the other heroes (there are 5 very clearly marked) an unassuming looking deputy manager of the store shoots her with gory/glory detail through the stomach and forehead. At this point the ‘liberal’ audience clap and cheer loudly (exactly as the director set the scene up for many to do).

The intolerant perspective whipping a mob up into blood lust has now shifted from the Christian character and her mob to the director and the audience. I don’t think ‘mean greens’ see this as similar!!

The term ‘mean green’ refers to the often highly egoic, no-one tells me what to do, mentality commonly associated with level 3 - Red - that can be hidden within the realms of pluralism and relativism. If all points of view are equal then it’s very hard to challenge anyone’s ego. In that case any trapped energy at level 3 that wasn’t given healthy release (often because level 4 is so mean and heavy handed too) will resurface at the green level where it seems to be a sign of being highly evolved. The way that this energy lay at the heart of the film left a sticky, yucky feeling afterwards but thankfully due to the terrible acting and camply over the top monsters the feeling didn’t linger.

My experiences with healing have developed considerably in the past months as I tune into the human form with the new perspective gained from my form from the formless work.

As i begin to appreciate the human being in its incredible complexity its intelligence offers itself to be witnessed.  This seems to most commonly take the form of a playful interaction between myself and the body as I am guided to move and touch different areas and express different sounds and words.

In my healings I am now focussing on witnessing the aspect of the body in which the healing resides rather than applying any particular technique.  This provides for a much more spontaneous flow of interaction and the quality of the experience is heightened for both the client and myself.

I am appreciating more and more that the approach to any human form must be with deep respect and honour, as the body will only give itself to healing or evolution if it is part of its true path or nature.  The intelligence of the body is akin to the intelligence of the universe and therefore the days where healing was something which was to be applied in the same way to all clients are now over.

Last weekend Stephen and I were extremely fortunate to have an hour long shared session with Aisha.  Aisha is a beautiful woman from Denmark who had a profound opening of the heart when she was 25.  You can read her full story here.  Since her opening she has been a conduit for the love energy and holds sessions and retreats all around the world where she meets with people and sits with them in love.

Sitting with Aisha and staring into her eyes is a unique and beautiful journey into your own heartspace.  She provides insight to  questions and connects with you on all human and soul levels. 

Since my time with Aisha I have experienced some profound energetic shifts and have found it easier to resonate from the heartspace in response to the ever changing world.

Thank you Aisha!

When we first set up our blog I did not think I would one day be posting an advert for Macdonalds!! Just goes to show you how Byron Katie’s concept of the “not-knowing mind” can take you to some wonderful places…….

I must admit a tear of gratitude or two was shed at the end of the final Oprah/Eckhart Tolle webcast last week. The 10 week webcast has coincided with a strong personal awakening, especially post Vancouver, and I know that the powerful presence of Eckhart and Oprah and the collective energy of enquiry and shift that the webcast has created had been invaluable in this opening.

Oprah is continuing to share with us every Monday in her Soul Series and her first downloadable interview is with Dr Jill. Here’s the link.

I had just been watching the 8th episode of the Oprah/Eckart Tolle Webcasts, and after hearing them refer to Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor I felt very strongly drawn to find out more about her. I Googled her and found the link for the talk she had done for TED.com.

Earlier in the week I’d had an interesting “A-B moment” - this is what I call it when I occasionaly hear or see something completely ordinary in a very ordinary context but recognise it as standing out in a certain way. The A part refers to first noticing it standing out- the B to when it surfaces again in the near future often with special significance. I’ve had this happen maybe 10 times in the last few years and each time the B part has led to something very special for me. Very often I wouldn’t have continued on to explore what ends up being the significant ‘B part’ were it not for the heads up a few days earlier - I would much more likely have ignored it or gotten swept up in the 1001 other things to focus on in that moment.

A few days ago I found myself watching an increasingly annoying epsiode of a techy/gadget show on BBC world on the iplayer on my laptop in bed at 1am. Clueless as to why I was doing it, as I was exhausted and not enjoying it, I continued to watch it regardless. Finally, towards the end they mentioned 3 websites and TED.com was one of them. I then had the “A part” of my A-B moment and relieved that I hadn’t lost all discernment turned it off and fell asleep.

Well as far as A-B heads up go, this is a good one……………..

(if the video below takes a long time to load you can click on the direct link here)

Whilst in Vancouver I asked Georgina Eden, a profound and inspiring spiritual teacher, for her views on my seeing abilities as described in an earlier post.  I was looking for some guidance on the practical uses for the ability and some insight into what was going on energetically during the process.

In response to my question Georgina asked what it would be like if the process of seeing the faces and allowing them to manifest and be seen was in fact the work itself.  That felt great to me as it released any pressure on me with regard to analysing what I was seeing.  It allowed me to be totally present with the process that already felt very powerful and authentic.

Georgina also explained that in moving through the faces and entities that I see, this allows for a healing process to take place as energies no longer required can be released. 

In my own understanding now, the process appears to be one of collaboration between myself and the client as energies that are ready to evolve or be transmuted can be expressed and spontaneously released.

Whilst in Vancouver I had an experience where I entered a meditative space of oneness with God (formless) and looked back at the human body (form).  With some prompts from Stephen’s well directed questioning I was able to describe the human form from that perspective.  I wanted to share that description as it has helped me to understand and value the precious nature of my physical body.

As I saw the human form I felt so drawn to its magical and miraculous density.  It was a creation of such seeming simplicity yet confounding complexity and its movement was a dance of incredible perfection. 

The experience of the density of the body was the most surprising to me.  It had never really occurred to me to look upon the density of the human form as anything other than entirely normal, but from that space of formless vastness, the marriage of the life force in such an incredible being of perfect density was overwhelmingly astounding.    

Applying my own simplistic understanding, I assume that because the formless realms are inhabited by less dense energies (non-physical) that the expression of life through denser matter is particularly beautiful.

I also had an awareness that the density of the body was multi-layered and that the body resonated on more than one energy frequency.   The body was inhabited by and created with amazing light and the full spectrum of colours.

I also felt a strong link between the snake and the human form.  It was almost as if both came from the same frequency of light.  There may also be a DNA connection here given the symbolism of the snake and its ties with the double helix.

The final insight came as I focused on the human eyes and appreciated that the function of the eyes is both to receive and send light.  The eyes link all the way back from the world of form to the formless space of oneness with God.

As the dust settles from our incredible trip to Vancouver and the time zones re-align I am feeling full of love! 

I designed this image on the way home from Durham this afternoon and it seems to hold the energy of how I am feeling today. 

Our first post from our week in Vancouver. It’s 2am and we’ve just gotten back today and what with my body not feeling like sleeping now - I thought I’d post something.
This is one of the highlights of our week - we must have watched this on my camera screen over 50 times